Lovely you. You have been so kind to me in granting me health and happiness. I am so sorry for all I have put you through in the past. I promise that I will treat you the best I possibly can, like the beautiful being you are. I promise to give you the proper conditions to heal. I will not give you anything I know you do not want, and I will not deny you of what I know you need. I trust in you to do what you know is right. Please forgive me for all I have done in the name of stress, sleep deprivation, and entertainment. You are my temple and my home and I shall only treat you as such. You are so wise, kind, and patient. Thank you for helping me, showing me signs, and most of all, for giving me life. I promise to give it back.
Love, Me.
There. Some things just need to be said.
I give myself credit for how far I have come. I ask for myself to always continue.
When I lived alone that was easy. But now living around a lot of other people, I have been absorbing some of their energies when it comes to eating - a lot of unhealthy habits and gluttonous thoughts. Imagine if those thoughts could be set free, what things they would go to!
So my focus is simplicity. Eating lightly, and simply. Juicy fruit from the trees.
Not trying to be anything else. I know what works for me, and I just need to keep doing it.
Lately I have been eating lots of sweet navel oranges, dates blended with water, and honeydew melon. Some days water fasting, some nights dry fasting.
I have been studying some new information from Nora Lenz and Loren Lockman. I would love to do an extended fast sometime. I will write about my new discoveries very soon. I should blog more often.
Breathe deeply. Fill your mind with beautiful thoughts, and your heart with love. ♥
It has been a while since writing last. I took a few weeks to do some personal work on writing, and expanding thoughts and mind. But I have had lots to write about in my blog too. It's different when you are writing for someone else to read.
We have been snowed in today. I had plenty of time to finish my painting of Evi and start on another landscape painting.
I have still been feeling great on high fruit and some greens. But I have felt a change taking place lately. I have been eating kind of weird combinations - oranges, dates, bananas, sun-dried tomatoes, avocados, etc. all at the same time. Cooked food is not appealing, but I have not been able to stick with the simplicity of mono meals.
Maybe it is part of the detox process? Maybe I am absorbing the gluttonous energy of the people around me? Maybe I simply need to eat more fruit?
Something is not quite right, something is missing. And I am determined to find out what it is.
Today I was looking at pictures from just two years ago, when I was cooked food veg. There is a huge difference, not really good or bad, just different. Does everyone change that much in 2 years? For one I have lost about 20 lbs. or so. I looked happier then, but I feel much happier now. Maybe sometime I will put up pictures from back then.
But the major difference has occurred in my teeth. They used to be very white and straight and with thick and strong enamel. About a year ago I was eating lots of oranges and dates. I started having problems, that my teeth hurt and then they started becoming more yellow, and six months later they were very badly damaged. Now I am embarrassed to smile.
So I am not sure what to do about them. I have switched to using Toothsoap, started eating lots of greens, and thinking positive thoughts on behalf of my teeth. So far, there has been very little improvement.
I know that the body can take 5-10 years to rebuild itself after you switch to a raw food diet. So I am trying to be patient; this is not such a big deal. I just do not want them to get worse and for calcium to be leached from my bones as well. I don't like to have to worry. I trust in Natural Hygiene. That said, I have been paying close attention to my calcium: phosphorous ratio in my diet, which is what I was advised by a friend who was able to regrow his tooth enamel. He said it took him about a year. Patience.
Today: 1 pineapple 8 navel oranges 10 dates 3 large collard leaves soup made from 1 orange, 3 roma tomatoes, 5 sundried tomatoes, 5 dates, and lots of spinach.
(it was very good)
I bought many oranges. I would like to try at least one mono-day on them this week.
At this time I have backed off from running. I used to really love it but for the past few weeks I have not felt like running at all (could be the snow, or maybe I was overdoing it). When I feel drawn to it again I will start back up. But have been doing yoga classes and dancing, and feeling great doing that.
Okay that was a lot of writing. More topics later. Thanks for reading ♥
Paul Cezanne: Still Life with Plaster Cupid, 1895
