Pranayama.

Something new I am learning is different meditations and breathing techniques. Usually I watch videos of them. Then I observe how I feel during and afterward. Today's breathing technique was from this video - the Full Yogic Breath. I am starting off with basic techniques.



Starting in a seated position, with good posture and chin slightly dropped, breathe into the abdomen for four counts, next into the ribcage for two counts, and then into the chest for two counts. Now retain the breath. Hold it for as long as you can. When you feel the need to breathe, begin by exhaling from the chest and ribcage for six counts, and then from the abdomen for two counts.

It is pretty intense. After one yogic breath I would take a few deep breaths, before doing another yogic breath. Ten minutes passed in the blink of an eye.

During this breath I felt very aware. I also felt a strange feeling, as if I was a stick figure inside a human body. I felt aware of the body and energy fields surrounding me. Afterwards, I felt positively high like there was glitter in my veins instead of blood. I would love to start and end my day this way.

My week.

I am trying to be more open. Trying to let more people get to know me. I have always been a quiet person, who usually keeps to myself. I like to listen more than talk. I keep everything inside. So it is a challenge for me. But I have been inspired by so many people who have shared their thoughts, lives, wisdom, hopes, writings, pictures, paintings, observations, joys and sorrows, good days, bad days, ideas, views and visions with me.

I think I have beautiful thoughts and a wonderful life. I would like to share more with the world. So I am trying to be open to everyone and everything, even if that means getting hurt at times.

I am saying yes. Yes to life.



After 2 years on a fruit diet, I am still amazed at many things. After getting so used to feeling a certain way, something will come along to remind you of a way you used to feel. I smashed my toe, it was very painful at first; but only two weeks later, it is almost completely healed. (I am not posting a before and after picture, unless anyone wants to throw up.)

Even my teeth seem to be healing nicely after all. In some time I will post a before and after picture of them. I have an affirmation that I try to repeat daily: "My teeth are healthy, strong, and white."

My sister visited last week, and was asking me for toothpaste. She was also asking where the shampoo and conditioner were...oops. As gross as this would sound to a cooked food eater, I never have bad breath now, not even in the morning. My hair hardly ever gets dirty. A couple of times a month I rinse it with baking soda and water only. It is freeing not to need all those products. I could make a list of hundreds of other things.

But I digress.

As for what I ate this week, I couldn't have said it better than Fruity Jules (but I will summarize): I was going to have just tangerine juice all week. But it seems it is the end of their season, they are not as sweet, and watermelons are starting to come in now. I got several big ones with seeds. So this week I had some tangerine juice, papaya, and champagne mangoes, and lots of watermelon.

Today:
Breakfast - juice of 10 honey tangerines, and 1 papaya
Lunch - 4 champagne mangoes
Dinner - Bowl of fruit salad that I brought to a party (pineapple, strawberries, grapes, watermelon and kiwi. Yes always trust the fruitarian to bring the fruit salad.)
Later - 1 small watermelon and 4 red bananas
It was a long day. But a good one.

Wishing you all every beautiful thing. ♥

Our choices, ourselves.

I don't think our choice of diet is really about the food. It's more of a reflection of ourselves, and how we feel inside. My food choices mirror my inner state. That is why I like to record them here from time to time. I would like to do it daily if possible.

From my experience, when in a dense mood we may crave dense food. When in pain, we may crave foods that hurt us. When feeling confused, we may crave complex foods. Our food choices match our energy. But food will never be the answer to problems, nor will it help solve them. It can only offer a temporary distraction, until ready to stop distracting ourselves.

We all have, or have had, these things we use to distract ourselves. I guess, being born as an American female, I have chosen food (among other things). But I can change that.

What would happen if we truly felt good, at peace, and loved ourselves? Maybe the lightest of foods, fruit, juices, or perhaps nothing at all would be required. That may not be scientific, but that is what I believe.

Last week I really had too many high-fat foods: avocados, coconuts, pistachios and tahini. By now I should know better than that. Because of this my energy is low, my skin is dull and my hair is dirty. Love vibrations are still coming through strong, though. This week will be just tangerine juice, all week long.

Mmmmm.

Just ate blackberries and tahini. So wrong, yet so right.



Today:
Breakfast - Juice of 20 honey tangerines
Lunch - Juice of 20 honey tangerines
Later - blackberries and tahini and a few asparagus stalks

I feel great. On top of the world.

Missing link.

Today I went running for the first time in a couple of months. Wow, I feel like a new person! Exercise can be a kind of meditation. For many years I ran daily, but decided to take a break just to see what would happen if I didn't take out my emotions and thoughts through exercise, where they would go, what things would develop. It was a good experiment. I learned new things about myself and about life.

Lately, even my most favorite fruits do not seem appealing. Honeydew? Yuck. Grapefruits? Sour. Bananas? Gag. I even bought some exotic fruits the other day, durian and longans, and they seemed blah. Not really sure what to eat then or if to eat at all. Maybe I need to exercise more? But if I don't feel like it I'm not going to make myself. I had some avocados today for the first time in a while, just for something dense. Usually these days I am just having tangerine juice, and sometimes papaya or pineapple.

Today:
Breakfast - Juice of 15 honey tangerines
Lunch - a very large papaya
Snack - 2 avocados

Kind of feel like Woody from Toy Story:



Life can be very strange sometimes. But I do like surprises every now and then. ♥

I love my blog.

It helps me. Even if no one reads it. Whatever I write about, magically happens - oftentimes the very next day.

Lately I have been going through some deeply moving changes in myself. Today was very real. I appreciate that. I am asking the strength and grace to face my challenges, learn from them, overcome and go higher.

I am doing well on juicy fruits in monomeals. I found this list from another website interesting - it's the reasons why people eat:
-The choice of food that tastes good.
-The choice of whatever food that fills the stomach so that one can not eat more.
-It's mealtime and whatever food is available is ok.
-The choice to eat any food that is within reach, food that "happens to be there so why not eat it".
-The choice of cheaper food alternatives.
-Everyone else is eating that particular type of food.
-Someone else prepared this food so it's convenient to eat it.
-Someone offered the food so it's inpolite not to eat it.
-Not giving it much thought whatsoever, simply eating "just because".

The last one, "just because", seems to be the most common. Strange when you think of it that way. Why do we eat at all? Before eating, think what is the reason? Is it out of boredom, distraction, entertainment, social reasons, convenience, restlessness, habit, "just because"? What would life be like if we didn't need to eat? What things would change? What possibilities are there? I like to challenge common thought-forms and have been exploring these ideas. It has lead to some very interesting new perspectives for me, on the verge of a paradigm shift. From now on if I eat at all, it will only be those fruits that resonate with my energy. Honey tangerines are good right now.

Today:
Breakfast - celery juice and 1 large papaya
Lunch - juice of 18 honey tangerines
Dinner - juice of 18 honey tangerines

This. I can't stop listening.


♥ ♥ ♥

Past. Present. Future.

"Live your questions now, and perhaps even without knowing it, you will live along some distant day into your answers." -Rainer Maria Rilke

Hello. I had such an experience last night. I finished writing in one diary and usually I just close them up and put them away somewhere and start a new one. Last night however I was feeling curious, it has been quite a monumental past year you see and so I read all back through this journal, and the one before, and the one before. And it was amazing to see what I wrote about what I was going through and how I felt and what I was thinking, and how it all has delivered me perfectly into the present moment. It was a good reinforcement to trust that what is happening is always towards my greater good.

Dear Diary,
I love you.

It has been a while since writing here, but I want to start blogging again. Just to talk about my life and thoughts, and what I am eating mostly and how I am feeling about it. See here I have no fruitarians or raw foodists arounds to share with, in fact I don't even know another vegan. Which is okay, and is all the more reason for me to set a good and strong example.

So this is a way for me to think outloud as I continue my progress as a fruitarian and to inspire myself. I can also talk about my reasons for being fruitarian, and record my observations, as well as the many good things things I am attracting, and perhaps other blogs I enjoy.

What I would like to be doing now is all monomeals of juicy fruit, keeping it light, listening to hunger or lack thereof, and finishing my last meal early in the day. I do have a habit of eating late at night, because I have been doing it all my life as a way to relax after the day is finished. But I can find another way to relax, such as meditating, reading, and writing, or talking on the phone, instead of eating dinner late at night.

The past few days I have been eating a lot. In fact, I want to write it here because I myself cannot quite believe it. Today and yesterday too I ate well over 2,000 calories. I always hear about 811ers who are eating 3-4,000 calories a day, and wonder how and where these people put it. My day usually averages about 1,500-1,800 calories at the most. But lately have been out of the usual. What I would usually last me a whole week, I ate in 3 days. Well there is a whole store full of delicious fruit so that is not a problem. I am trying to listen for now, and I wonder if this will continue.

Today:

Breakfast - Cucumber juice and 1 honeydew melon.
Lunch - 2 large (large) papayas. Not at the same time.
Dinner - Juice of 8 pink grapefruits.
Snack - 10 tangerines.
Late-night snack - Celery and tomato juice, 1 bunch of asparagus, and grape tomatoes.



See? I wasn't kidding. That is some healthy eating right there.

And yesterday? Well:

Breakfast - Celery juice and 15 tangerines, juiced.
Lunch - 1 cantaloupe melon.
Later - 2 small papayas and 3 red bananas.
Snack - 1 large papaya, 1 thai coconut water and meat.
Dinner - 1 small, but generous and very perfect, angelic durian.


I think that is good. It is very healthy, mostly juicy fruit and almost all monomeals.

There. That felt good. I think I will blog more often. ♥